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There’s something beautiful about kindness, a quiet power in giving without expecting anything in return. But, over the years, I’ve learned that there’s a fine line between being kind and losing sight of who you are. It’s a line I’ve crossed more times than I care to admit. In the pursuit of making others happy, of being there for loved ones, I’ve sometimes paid a price I wasn’t prepared for—my own sense of self-worth.

I remember moments in my life when I’ve put the needs of others above my own, sometimes to the point where I barely recognized myself. Whether it was staying up late to help a friend, sacrificing personal time for family, or dimming my own voice to avoid conflict, the choice to be kind felt right in the moment. It felt like the right thing to do, the loving thing to do. But when the dust settled, I often found myself exhausted, disconnected from my own desires, and questioning my worth.

There’s an undeniable pressure to be kind, especially as a mother. I’ve often found myself torn between my own aspirations and the expectations placed upon me. I wanted to be a great mom to Riyansh, to be patient, loving, and always available. Yet, in doing so, I sometimes felt my own dreams and desires pushed aside. It’s a common story, I know—many women find themselves in this dilemma, where kindness and self-sacrifice become intertwined with self-worth.

I’ve realized, though, that this pattern of kindness at the cost of self-worth isn’t sustainable. At some point, you begin to feel as if you’re losing yourself in the process. The thing is, kindness doesn’t require you to forget yourself. True kindness, the kind that comes from a place of strength and love, doesn’t diminish your value. In fact, it enhances it.

There was a pivotal moment in my journey when I realized that I had been neglecting my own well-being. It wasn’t an easy realization. It came in the form of quiet exhaustion and a lingering sense of resentment, feelings that had been building up over time. It was in these moments, after taking a step back, that I understood—self-worth is not something to be given away freely. It needs to be nurtured, protected, and honored. It’s the foundation from which all our other acts of kindness should spring.

Now, I approach kindness with a healthier perspective. I still offer my support, my love, and my care, but I do it from a place of strength rather than sacrifice. I’ve learned to set boundaries and say no when it’s necessary, without guilt. I’ve come to understand that my worth is not contingent upon how much I give to others, but rather, on how well I take care of myself. I have to love myself first to truly give love to others.

I won’t pretend this shift has been easy. It’s taken time, reflection, and a lot of difficult conversations, both with others and with myself. But the reward has been worth it. I feel more grounded, more confident, and more connected to the people I care about because I’ve finally learned to show up for myself first.

Kindness, when practiced with self-respect, can be a beautiful gift to the world. It’s about balance, about giving without draining yourself. It’s about knowing that you are worthy of love and kindness, too—not as a byproduct of your actions, but as an inherent part of who you are.

In addition to the personal struggles I’ve faced, there’s a societal expectation that kindness often equates to selflessness, to giving so much that we forget to hold something back for ourselves. This expectation is especially prevalent for women, who are often socialized to put others first. Whether it’s the roles of daughter, wife, or mother, the narrative we’ve been told is that love is measured by sacrifice. But I’ve come to see that this narrative can be dangerous.

For years, I measured my worth through the lens of how much I could give. I thought if I gave everything I had, I would be loved more, valued more, or respected more. But all that giving left me feeling depleted, and the love I sought never seemed to fill the void that was left behind. I’ve found that real love and respect are born from mutual understanding and care, not from one-sided sacrifices.

There have been moments when I’ve questioned my worth because I wasn’t able to meet every expectation, when I felt as though my needs were somehow secondary. But those moments were powerful teachers. They taught me that by neglecting myself, I was actually doing a disservice to the people I loved. When we’re not grounded in our own worth, our ability to give—truly give—is diminished. It’s like pouring from an empty cup; eventually, there’s nothing left to offer.

One of the greatest gifts I’ve given myself in this journey is the permission to put my own needs on the same level as others’. It’s not about being selfish; it’s about being self-aware. It’s about understanding that self-care is not a luxury, but a necessity. Without it, I would never be able to show up for those who matter most in my life. I would have nothing to offer because I would have nothing left.

The beauty of embracing this truth is that it allows kindness to flourish in a deeper, more genuine way. When you honor your own needs and boundaries, your kindness doesn’t come from a place of exhaustion or resentment—it comes from strength, balance, and a clear sense of self-worth. In this space, kindness becomes a true gift, not a form of self-sacrifice.

As I’ve navigated this, I’ve also learned that the people around me, especially Riyansh, have a better understanding of what it means to give and receive love. I want him to grow up knowing that kindness doesn’t mean giving until you’re empty; it means giving from a place of fullness. I want him to see that self-respect and love for oneself are as important as the love we show others.

Ultimately, what I’ve discovered is that when we prioritize our own well-being, when we step into our own worth, we become more than capable of giving in ways that are both meaningful and sustainable. It’s a journey of embracing self-compassion, setting boundaries, and recognizing that our worth is not defined by what we do for others, but by who we are.

Kindness, in its truest form, is not about sacrificing our sense of self, but about giving in a way that honors both our own needs and the needs of those we care about. Only then can we truly give from a place of abundance, love, and strength.

So, I ask you: When was the last time you showed kindness to yourself? And what would it look like for you to nurture your own worth as much as you do the people around you?